Thursday, April 19, 2012

Moral Dilemma

I need to be smart. I need to play this game. Anything but owning up to the truth. Never the truth. I need to anticipate your moves in order to cover my back. I failed. I anticipated wrong. I overestimated your ability to lie and underestimated your capacity to forgive. I backed into a corner thinking I was headed to an open field. A field of lies. I'll take the lies, any day. To the grave. Never the truth. You didn't play by the rules. We agreed. You caved and snatched me away from my field. It takes two to tango. I tangoed in the wrong direction. Towards my field. I want to be in my field. I could breathe in my field. I can't breathe in this corner.

Silence. I'd do the same. Exactly the same. Maybe a little different. But exactly the same. Silence. Silence. Anticipation.

This corner is suffocating me. I can't breathe. Where's my field. I want my comforting lies back. Never bring a second and unreliable party to the field. It's yours. Nobody is reliable. I can't breathe. But never the truth. Try another direction. Let's play a game. Be resourceful. Use what you can. Blackmail. It's a sticky situation so watch your back. Always watch your back. Don't fail again. Anticipate the reaction. How good can a person be. How honest. He can't be this honest. Everybody's dark on the inside. Be careful. It could be the biggest mistake you make. Never the truth. Anticipate and plan accordingly. Never the truth.